Mar 27

I haven't logged since yesterday. To be honest, I haven't been very well exactly. I've had a hard time controlling my thoughts. Dizziness and tremors were low to mild consistently. Depression falls in around the evenings when I stay home, especially on a weekend. I planned to stay at the studio late until I spilled mineral spirits all over my table. I figured this doesn't help my condition so I better come back when the chemical is dissipated

This morning I had multiple vivid dreams that stimulated me highly. I woke up with dizziness and nervousness.

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